Control freak

I knew exactly who knew and who didn't know about me.

Now I feel I don't have that control. I don't know who is 'safe' to talk to. And I haven't personally had assurance they won't tell anybody. That is what frightens me.

I know after January, that it could be open completely for all to know, but likewise, it could all be a wild fantasy. And if it is a fantasy, I don't know how I could face My wife's family...